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Wishful Thinking by SpazLizard, literature

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Wishful Thinking

Wishful Thinking (an afterthought) I love like I never like to love because lingering scents tell me what would have otherwise been memories. Loving like I like and never compromising. But here I am changing my words around back again same dot on the map. I am here in that ever-recurring spot between certainty and blind fate. Heaping piles of regret betrayel solitude. I've never been in such a shitty mood and I tell myself like I told myself a thousand times. "Not again" "Not again" "Not again"

'I'm sorry' by SpazLizard, literature

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'I'm sorry'

Driven out of the house for good by a moment of reflection. Mouthing off never felt so good as it did right then. The last time this happened I was lost Nothing to do…. ….beside myself in shock. This time it's different. I have answers -response -support And even though it still hurts- -it doesn't leave me empty. I am far more grateful for that now than I ever thought I'd be. So as far as apologies are concerned They can be taken -or left -or repeated But I never come up short anymore. And that's saying more than any argument with you ever has. "I'm sorry" a phrase with one definition and endless meanings

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My Hero by SpazLizard, literature

The title didn't fit here. by SpazLizard, literature

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The title didn't fit here.

When He Wouldn't Turn Back//Lying. I climbed in my bed to find a dead fly staring at my walls in all directions like flies eyes do. What did he see when he died? Did a family flash before his eyes? Did every lie he ever told suddenly become the largest regret he'd wish he'd forget and take from the heads of his children so they'd never hear anything but the truth? Did chimes play and warm light surround him? Does a fly feel bliss such as this? Loss like this? Regret like this? When did he know the moment he wouldn't turn back the moment the walls would lose their color the moment it left. I would ask "Did it hurt?"

Grit iIn My Knees by SpazLizard, literature

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Grit iIn My Knees

Going down to the river to pray and old ways are dying because I forget how they were- I'm pretty sure I've forgotten Just about everything childhood ever had to offer me. So I'm trying again On my knees by this river Hoping my contents won't burst and escape in the rapids because I'll never get back I'll never get back. I'll never get back what I thought I'll never get back what I was but here you are telling me it's something that I should've never held on to. So I'm off my knees now. A new way is on it's way or in my heart or on my shoes or I'm on my shoes or off my knees anything just please let me hold onto what's in

Knot by SpazLizard, literature

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Knot

I'm am not. I already knew. And you did not Need to tell me What I am not Because there's not a knot I cannot handle. And even if it remained tangled… Who are you to point it out and tell me that it's a problem? Because even frayed-knots can be beautiful. And I'm afriad not of what is ahead- but instead, of what is now. Because now seems like forever. And now might be the one time I can't handle it. Stick a candle to it. Light it up and let it flame Until there is no one left to blame- -Not even me. Because there won't be the slightest vague hint of what I tried to say or try to say or have to say or want to sa

The Belly of the Whale by SpazLizard, literature

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The Dream. by SpazLizard, literature

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The Dream.

I cannot tell the terrible times I Cannot count the terrible times I have Said it to myself, and you have not heard. Ready, awake, blank stares at my pillow If only I could trust you with me now Have me with you, now knowing what I know. The palm of my hand never seemed more cold My hands are always cold 'til you hold them. And holding them means stopping me from this. If only holy palmers kissed these hands Would these hands have been spared, or simply held- Steady, sweating, on the steering wheel and Anticipating the road up ahead.

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Wishful Thinking by SpazLizard, literature

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My Hero by SpazLizard, literature

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Grit iIn My Knees

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Knot

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The Dream.

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Artist // Literature

United States
Deviant for 17 years
www.xanga.com/SpazMHS/672471316/item.html
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Current Residence: Columbus, GA
Favourite genre of music: Soundtracks, Show tunes, The Killers
Favourite cartoon character: Daffy Duck, Bugs Bunny
Personal Quote: Your the reason that someone else is alive. So when you can't find a reason to live...think of

Favourite Visual Artist

Toulousse Lautrec, Rachel Bowman

Favourite Movies

Ha...don't even go there

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

Billy Joel, Jason Mraz, The Killers, U2 The Police, The Killers, The Killers, The Killers

Favourite Writers

Shel Silverstein, Michael Lunig

Favourite Games

Kingdom Hearts

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Film, Theatre, Music, Writing

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SpazLizard

Jun 25, 2009

Been a While

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I spend all my time writing other things and I definitely don't keep up with this thing ever.  I have a xanga...and yes I know it's lame to still have a xanga but I understand it better than blogspot.  stupid blogspot. So, here I am. I'm officially a struggling playwright I suppose.  Time to start putting my stuff out there for publishing if I can get it out there... anyone know any publishers? -Megan Noelle

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SpazLizard

Apr 18, 2008

So I stole this name game.

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1. WITNESS PROTECTION NAME: (mother & father's middle name) Lynn Penn.   --HAHA! 2. NASCAR NAME: (first name of your mother's dad, father's dad) Albert Truett 3. STAR WARS NAME: (the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first name) Smime  -That sounds gross. 4. DETECTIVE NAME: (favorite color, favorite animal) Red Wolf 5. SOAP OPERA NAME: (middle name, city where you were born) Noelle Pensacola 6. SUPERHERO NAME: (2nd fav color, fav drink, add "THE" to the beginning) The Grey Lemonade--- GROSS 7. FLY NAME: (first 2 letters of 1st name, last 2 letters of your last name) Meth----HAHAHAHA 8. GANGSTA NAME: (fav

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SpazLizard

Jan 23, 2008

RACHEL.

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VISIT MY FRIGGIN' DORM. You should come see the play next weekend...I'm backstage again but hey it's a free ticket and free fun.

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mirror360

Nov 10, 2009

you should put up your cosplay photos. You and

did a great job as Hikaru, Umi and Fuu and I think you all should do a photoshoot, not at a convention but just some day when you have time! I'd like to see more pictures of you all b/c I love that manga! n_n